As Joseph sought the Lord, his God,
With all his heart,
God laid on Him a burden he would bear,
Yet not alone.
The Lord was with this holy man
To bring to pass His master plan.
Thru foreign lands,
God walked beside His own.
I'll never leave you,
Never forsake you.
By waters still, in pastures green,
I'll often take you.
But when I break you, so that My name be glorified,
I'll never leave you, Never forsake you.
Though fires and floods would seem to hide His plan for you,
Though trials and afflictions seem to take away your song,
Though you may never understand,
just trust in His upholding hand.
In time you'll learn,
He's been there all along.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Vietnam VS Japan
An apology to someone whom I made to take the bus with me all the way from Changi airport which took about an hour. Whilst the train would have been faster. At least we talked! :x
A big thanks to those who wrote for me a peer appraisal because they really lifted my spirits. (:
11:19:00 PM
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Those magic changes
Now I can see how much I really meant to you and I'm glad I made this decision... Guess I was the cause of your weariness... I should have known. Well, here's your life back. I'm not bugging you anymore
8:50:00 PM
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Flour & Love
I think those candles that relight themselves after trying to blow them out countless times are super cool! We used it on Mau today. Hope you had a good time, old man.
Met my dad's side today. My cousin's kids are getting older. To think, they're like only about 12 years younger than me. Hiaz... And I can't get them to call me Jie Jie but rather Auntie instead ): Ahwell.
This sounds crazy. But I really need to train soon. Training with 6-8 sets of 40 storeys where I can climb, climb, climb and think. And feel so good and alive after that. I want to run rounds. Train 45 minutes worth of rounds where I can run, run, run and think. And clean up the mess in my mind and feel accomplished after that.
10:19:00 PM
Twilight
I don't care how many people think Twilight was a flop! Edward was so darn charming with his killer eyes and romantic feel! I want to read the book pretty badly.
Spent a lot of money today. Well, I hardly spend. Thanks for the fun guys (:
12:39:00 AM
Thursday, December 25, 2008
A Christmas Gift
First of all, Merry Christmas everybody! But do remember the purpose of this holiday and who's special birthday it is. (:
Secondly, thanks to everyone for the presents. (: I still think John's the best. He told me jokingly that he'll me make something(which was impossible to make), but in the end he bought it, and I didn't expect it at all! Funniest thing was that he left the price tag on the present! Wasn't cheap lol.. xD Thanks okay!
2 sleepovers in a row. I'm pretty happy but really tired. Caught maybe half an hour of sleep when I couldn't stay awake during Balls of Fury. Owell... Might sleep the afternoon away then ): God answered a prayer of mine today and I am the most relieved girl ever on earth. :D
8:17:00 AM
Sunday, December 21, 2008
The way to entertain yourself
Woah Josiah spams quizzes and so shall I!
QUIZ 1
1. Friends are... Basically everyone I talk to!
TRUE friends are those who would give a listening ear and be there for me most of the time and know when I'm sad after talking to them and............ A lot lah. (:
2. I am listening to... FM Static - Flop Culture
3. Maybe i should learn... more skills like cooking :D and to understand and treasure my friends
4. I love... you!
5. My plan... is no plan.
6. I don't understand... how guys think.
7. I lost my... EZ link card ): and I had to make the new one with the same ugly picture because I had no time to take another picture!
8. People say... I'm WEIRD
9. I am missing... you
10. Love means... There are so many meanings...
11. Somewhere, someone is... eating pulut hitam
12. I am always searching for... new things to do...
13. Forever means... Eternal
14. I never want to... 1. kiss a cockroach 2. break the next relationship I have 3. stray away from God
15. My mobile phone... is ugly, lousy, and lags.
17. I get annoyed when... people get fake
18. Parties are... somewhere I don't like to go to unless it's full of my close friends.
19. Hugs and kisses... make me happy!
20. Today I... -went to church and sat in the second row. (: -watched Shannen and her coolio instructors dance! -had a strange and kinda nice night?
21. Tmrw i will be... out of the house
22. I really want to... be used as a channel by God
23. I am... special!
24. What is your phone brand? Sony Ericsson
25. What are the last 3 digits of your phone number? 061
26. What does the second message in your inbox says? It's personal!
27. Who was the last person u rang? Ryan
28. Who was the last missed call from? My mummy
29. What is oldest message in your inbox says? It's even more personal than my second message in my inbox!
30. Who comes aft ' J '? K (Josiah put O... Haha alphabet fail (:)
31. Go to your sent message - what does the tenth message says? I only have 3 messages inside
32. Who is your network provider? Singtel! I get Sgwireless (:
33. How many message are there in your inbox? Quite a lot?
34. Who do you have on speed dial three? I only have one speed dial
35. If you are on prepaid card, how many credits do you have? Not!
36. Who's the first person who comes after ' C '? Caritas
37. What do you have as your main ringtone? Haha my alarm only. B I G B A N G by Big Bang!!! :D
QUIZ 2
2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning? Quite excited because my sister's friends came over to drink last night and I like to wake up and see a lot of dead people around the house in their funny positions :D
3. Who was the last person you took a picture of? Josie
4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? Of course! Though I wouldn't like to be so spoiled ):
5. Would you ever donate blood? Yeah but I'm 45kg and pretty skinny and I'm worried for myself more than the person I'm donating blood to :X
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? Yes(:
7. Do you want someone dead? Satan counted?
8. What does your last text message say? DON'T TELL YOU
9. What are you thinking about right now? Many things! How I need to pee and bathe but my sister is using the bathroom... What I'm gonna do after I bathe... Why someone ain't replying my sms... etcetc
10. Do you wish someone was with you right now? I guess... I kinda like company. Who doesn't?
11. What time did you go to sleep last night? 1130pm
12. Where did you buy the shirt you’re wearing now? Suntec
13. Is someone on your mind right now? Ya.
14. Who was the last person to text you? Shannen
10 people to tag. 1) Ryan 2) San 3) Sk 4) Caritas 5) Josiah 6) Wesley 7) Alvar 8) John 9) Tim Loe 10) Luther
15. Who is number 2(San) having a relationship with? I'm THINKING no one...
16. Is 3(Sk) a male or a female? Should be female lah
17. If number 7(Alvar) and 10(Luther) got together, would that be a good thing? Gays are wrong!
18. How about 5(Josiah) and 8(John)? I repeat... Gays are wrong!
19. What is number 1(Ryan) studying about? studying about?! I dunno...
20. When was the last time you had a chat with them? 6/7/8/10(Wes/Al/John/Luther): 6-8: Went out with them today! 10: Camp
21. Is number 4(Caritas) single? I think so(:
22. Say something about number 2(San). She's my longest friend ever! (Since birth?) She likes BBQ lays chips She's a naughty girl(:
23. What do you think about number 3(Sk) and 6(Wes) being together? Got chance got chance (: But height very contrasting lol
24. Describe number 9(Tim Loe). She's my sisterr. Tall. Skinny. Likes hairbands. Lame. Secretive. Manipulative. Big bully. Likes to pronounce Seriously as See-Rai-Years-Lee and I don't know why. Beng! :D
25. What will you do if number 6(Wes) and 7(Al) fights? Give them a heart-to-heart talk
26) Who is no.6(Wes) having relationship with? I think no one :D
27) Is no.9(Tim Loe) a male or female? Female
28) What is no.2(San) studying about? Dunno? playing now :D
29) When is the last time you had a chat with no.3(Sk)? Today!
30) What kind of music band does no.8(John) like? I don't know. Enya-ish songs?
31) Will you woo no.3(Sk)? Nah!
32) How about no.7(Al)? Nah! (no offense :P)
33) Is no.4(Caritas) single? Think so...Interested?
34) What is the surname of no.5(Josiah)? Tan
35) What’s the hobby for no.4(Caritas)? Cam whoring hahahaha :D
36) Does no.5(Josiah) and 9(Tim Loe) get along well? Should be
37) Where is no.2(San) studying at? Not sure. Just graduated from PHS
38) Say something casual about no.1(Ryan): There's too much to say
39) Have you tried developing feelings for no.8(John)? It stops at being friends
40) Where does no.9(Tim Loe) live at? Potong Pasir. No lah don't think I dunno.... :P
41) What colour does no.3(Sk) like? I don't know. Art person... Like every colour la! lol x_x
42) Are no.5(Josiah) and 1(Ryan) best friends? Normal friends la
43) Does no. 1(Ryan) have any pets? Nopey
44) Is no.7(Alvar) the sexiest person in the world? *stone* (No offense again!)
45) What is no. 10(Luther) doing now? I not sure. He's feeling weird now I think. luther says (11:19 PM): eh luther says (11:19 PM): ask you ar Sarah수영 break and tear says (11:19 PM): ? luther says (11:20 PM): nothing
OH I don't owe my mum anymore for my iTouch because I got $200 for some school improvement award thingie. :D
9:21:00 PM
Saturday, December 20, 2008
We were all so high and for that period of time I just felt so carefree and happy that I wasn't experiencing the slightest bit of depression. Thank God for seeing me through the night, and that I had so many 4 red cards and so little 1-4 black cards. Next week's going to be painful...
To think I might not see those eyes Makes it so hard not to cry
9:32:00 PM
Friday, December 19, 2008
I give my life to you
The thing I like about camps/expeditions is that my mind is most receptive during these trips. This YF camp was no exception and I'm really glad the Lord has purposefully placed me into this camp so that I would be right with Him again. The messages, talks, practically everything during the camp made me more aware of myself and I'm really super super thankful for that!
I guess I didn't realize how crapped up my relationships were until I heard what different people had to say. Pastor Paul Choo had a way of reaching out to us with his unorthodox views of what our relationship with God/friends/parents should be like. Truthfully he has been the most appealing preacher to me, not because I hear what I want to hear but rather because I feel that whatever he says makes sense. And I don't stone out.
I didn't know that some YFers were so similar to me too in the views of our church and lifestyle. Funny thing is that I got really close to people whom I talked to for the first time. (Not that I've forgotten my old friends because you all are still just as precious to me!) And I really thank God for these people because they could relate to me well. So this camp was effective not so much in the games aspect but more of a communication-with-brethren aspect. I'm truly touched by all of my friends who spoke to me during the camp.
For those of you who know... I'm extremely thankful to God for not letting me have a breakdown during camp. I didn't expect myself to keep strong as I'm sort of emotional. So it must have been God who helped me all the while. (: I pray that even now as camp is over, I will remember what I have learned and I will put them to practice. It is a privilege to have gone and experienced a spiritual revival. Spiritual growth beats mental and physical growth hands down.
There was one thing that hit me hard during camp. Even though you might have great relationships with your friends and family, they are still human and they will fail you. You might not like it, but people change, they come and go and it's the bare fact that we have to face. Yet we tend to get affected by all these, forgetting that there is still a God who's there for you every minute, every second. Have faith that He's there and He will be there. Communicate and pray to Him. The simplest prayer would help a lot and you'll realize how many prayers of yours He'll answer if you are willing to ask Him. Realistic prayers.
God's always there for you. I know for myself, I'll tend to forget all this one day again and will become all emotional. But well, struggle is proof that God has not given up on me. (:
And I pray that you will have the best of your life now. You're finally free (:
2:10:00 PM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Nothing is an accident
I watched Kung Fu Panda again today, and I realized it's a very nice movie! A bit of meaning here and there, Master Wu Gui ftw! 'There is a saying... Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That's why it is called present.' It reminds me of how we should not dwell in our past failures, not worry about tomorrow; but focus on today itself. God's always there to go through everything with us. Treasure each day you go through because new surprises come, and you learn something new in almost every moment of your life. Wonderful life we have right? Ironic though, compared to my last post. Guess I have a lot to change. (:
I'm going for church camp for the whole week. I need a spiritual revival, and a spiritual continuation. Only God knows how much I have strayed away from Him... Goodbye training for 5 days. So much for working so hard last Friday. Haha.
You know, I'm suddenly feeling very empty inside. Like I don't have anyone close to turn to now... Sigh I'm miles from where you are, I lay down on the cold ground I, I pray that something picks me up And sets me down in your warm arms
10:40:00 PM
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Screwed up kid with screwed up feelings and screwed up life
9:55:00 PM
Snow Patrol - It's beginning to get to me
I think Snow Patrol's more or less my favourite band.
I want something That's purer than the water Like we were
It's not there now Ineloquence and anger Are all we have
Like Saturn's rings An icy loop around me Too hard to hold
Lash out first At all the things we don't like Or understand
And it's beginning to get to me That I know more of the stars and sea Than I do of what's in your head Barely touching in our cold bed
Are you beginning to get my point That all this fighting with aching joints It's doing nothing but tire us out No one knows what this fight's about
The answer phone The lonely sound of your voice Frozen in time
I only need The compass that you gave me To guide me on
And it's beginning to get to me That I know more of the stars and sea Than I do of what's in your head Barely touching in our cold bed
Are you beginning to get my point That all this fighting with aching joints It's doing nothing but tire us out No one knows what this fight's about
It's so thrilling but also wrong Don't have to prove that you are so strong 'Cause I can carry you on my back After our enemies attack
I tried to tell you before I left But I was screaming under my breath You are the only thing that makes sense Just ignore all this present tense
We need to feel breathless with love And not collapse under its weight I'm gasping for the air to fill My lungs with everything I've lost
We need to feel breathless with love And not collapse under its weight I'm gasping for the air to fill My lungs with everything I've lost
12:46:00 AM
Friday, December 12, 2008
I think all of you should try Botak Jone's fish and chips.
Is anyone going to start studying? I need the homework list, because I seem to have misplaced... Everything.
I just downloaded some drinks application to my iTouch and it's quite cool because it has a lot of drink recipes ranging from chocolate drinks to alcoholic drinks to soft drinks. I found a few recipes containing Absinthe... And I was thinking, waohhh we can finally use up Ck's Absinthe but I realized we don't have any other ingredients. Haha! No money ):
11:55:00 PM
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Pretty darn fun day today! Frisbee + Volleyball today at Sentosa. Played with some strangers because Jin Shi had this burning desire to have a friendly match. Turned out to be exciting... Heh.
Went for guitar, then kinda got forced to watch a free movie, which wasn't too exciting but at least not too bad either. I can't even remember the movie! That earth one... Lol.
Training tomorrow again. I wish my body clock wasn't so screwed up. Now I can't sleep but i need to wake up at 6+am tomorrow. ): I want to feel sleepy!!!
11:58:00 PM
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
I'm still coughing and sniffling after so long. Sucks. Hmm seem to have lost the blogging mood... Maybe I'll get it back soon. ):
9:54:00 AM
Thursday, December 04, 2008
It has occured to me that I have been blogging a lot. Haha. But I do it for myself to read I guess.
Yesterday was a really good day. Ultra sweet chocolate marshmallow cookies. Student meals at Swensons. Cheap, real Mr. Men shirts. Gossips and heart-to-heart talks. The best thing is that Tang and I share the same bus stop! Which means we can conveniently meet up and talk until whatever time then take like 5 minutes to walk back. Yay.
Meet up again guys!
8:22:00 AM
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
32
Haha. Today is the worst day of my life. Because I know I'm going to lose something which is almost the most precious thing I've found in life. Haha
12:40:00 AM
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Went for training yesterday 90% dead and finished 100% alive because climbing 120 stories wakes you up like anything.
Spent money again, watched Quarantine which is not exactly that worth it but still got me freaked out, the plot wasn't very nice. ):
Ate Kenny Rogers and Starbucks at night. Awesome stuff + great night (:
My desk is in the biggest mess ever, but it suits my preference nonetheless. I don't understand how people can find their stuff when the table's neat.
Oh oh! I think that John and Charmaine, Maurice and Olivia look alike when they smile. Haha
11:21:00 AM
Monday, December 01, 2008
Dunkin' Donuts for breakfast
Tiring day... Felt like another Odac long walk. Never bypass the Malaysia customs and only realize it after crossing the causeway...zzz.