As Joseph sought the Lord, his God,
With all his heart,
God laid on Him a burden he would bear,
Yet not alone.
The Lord was with this holy man
To bring to pass His master plan.
Thru foreign lands,
God walked beside His own.
I'll never leave you,
Never forsake you.
By waters still, in pastures green,
I'll often take you.
But when I break you, so that My name be glorified,
I'll never leave you, Never forsake you.
Though fires and floods would seem to hide His plan for you,
Though trials and afflictions seem to take away your song,
Though you may never understand,
just trust in His upholding hand.
In time you'll learn,
He's been there all along.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
I wanted to finish all my work so I could blog with content and satisfaction, but I just realised I have a lot of rubbish to finish, so I'll just blog with panic right now haha. So... RANDOM STUFF!
1. I just realised I did leave my bio notes in the canteen a few days ago. And I remember Quan and Sean saw it but didn't bring it up for me. And Quan wrote something on it, along the lines of 'Sarah is silly'. =.= So I can't do my bio homework. That's definitely not a huge load off my chest!
2. I went to the gym with Charmaine today! Bumped into Linh, Tze Ren, Alex. Alex is like every Odac girl's trainer for pull ups or something. We all wanna do 3 pullups by Mangaroo's(MLim's son) birthday. Did 80 assisted, but still far far away from my goal. ):
3. Yan Ru says, "For those people who write "not sure" for the physical or skill component, please update me by tonight, if not, I am going to harass you guys during training tomorrow." (YAN RU leh!)
4. Alvin and I were late for school today. MLim *turns to the other late people* Wait ah, let me disturb disturb them a little bit *to Alvin* EZ link card. What CCA are you from? Alvin Odac... MLim ODAC... *turns to me* EZ link? What CCA are you from? Me Odac... MLim ODAC! Tsk, you cca teacher must not have taught you well.
5. My mind is a blank now. Wanted to say so many more things but all I can think about is the load of things I need to complete soon. Hiaz. I want another class outing. Actually get to spend more time with my class and away from all the other work. Then again, I want more time with Ry too.
11:18:00 PM
I'm itching to blog... ! ...!
But as always, homework first(bold triple). ): I'm so guai! Blog later :D
8:46:00 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Because I have no foolscap paper to do my Bio and Math homework
I have devastating news. For myself.
My phone got stolen. My wonderful purple phone, with my wonderful pictures and my wonderful messages, that were sent to me by a wonderful someone...And my wonderful messages are gonna be read by someone else who is not wonderful enough to read them. Grr. My privacy. Oh yeah, and along with my phone, my EZ-link card got taken away too. My wonderful EZ-link card, with the picture of me that looked like (quote Mr Lim) 'from China 50 years ago'.
And I have Alex in his traditional costume and Edmund with his botak head and Gab's sleeping-with-his-eyes-open technique and a few other pictures which I haven't transferred to the com yet. So I don't have them anymore. And never will. Never. Never. Ever.
Come to think of it, I am pissed. I want my phone back. I'll get a new phone, but I've just lost the little trust that my mum had in me. And that new phone won't bring me the same memories as when I first got my K770i. Yes, the one I spent 5 hours waiting for, during some great great sale. The PURPLE one, which no one else really dared to get(though suddenly everyone started to get the same phone model).
I am pissed. (And stressed)
Okay, current status of my toe... My dad has been helping me scrape the hard skin off until my old blood clot can be seen. But it can't be scraped out, don't know why either... And my skin is turning soft again, just that the wart is still there. Which means I can't scrape anymore but my toe still hurts. So I don't know how progression is going to be made... ): I put acid on the wart 2 hours ago, and my toe is now white. White and ugly... Looks like lichen on a tree trunk. No kidding!
Oh yeah, just came back from an 'OCIP' trip on Sunday. It felt like we didn't do much, but at the same time, the trip was pretty much awesome. (: Might talk more about it another time, might forget... Uhm... Yeah. No mood now. Gotta sleep
12:43:00 AM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I'm at home now while you all are in school! Haha. But I'll be going back, after Chinese ends.
Anyway, went to see some consultant for my stupid toe. Turns out I have a viral wart and it's contagious lol. So don't ever touch it people! Actually I myself have touched it before. Dunno why my fingers never get heh. I'm supposed to put some acid on my toe every day and scrape off the hard skin myself. Ouch? I sure cannot do one.
I went for a treatment session today. The person used a blade to scrape off all the hard skin and I was like already clenching my teeth and ready to punch anyone near me. She scraped until my toe was bleeding larh ): Then later she was like "Okay, this part isn't that bad. Later it will be a little more unbearable." I diao until cannot diao already la! She also mentioned that the hard skin will return.
They sprayed liquid nitrogen on my toe! -196deg. It was quite painful. Lol. And my dad was with me, so all he could say to help me was "Spray more spray more! Then just let the toe drop off. Why spray so little? Spray until she cannot take it anymore." Okay lah but quite cool, she let me watch her spray. Then later I complain until my dad cannot take it already haha
Complain more!
IT'S STINGING BLEHHHH
The doctor said I can still run, depends on whether I can tahan the pain. So I'll be signing up for the Nike Human Race! I so wanna run it. So so so so wanna run it. Guess it'll be mind over matter. Anyway, the pain will be reduced by then. (:
11:15:00 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
At this point, it's not up to me
Chinese 45 E PASS GP 57 C PASS Lit 44 S FAIL Bio 44 S FAIL Chem 54 D PASS Maths 42 S FAIL Sarah has done relatively decent in the midyear examinations. She is conscientious in her work and has positive attitude towards studies.
Relatively decent? That's rubbish lol... I just got a really long nagging from my parents. I don't know if it's normal that people feel quite a bit of low self-esteem, because I've been asking myself questions like why do I study more than others yet do worse? Why must my toe be infected and not somebody else's? Why can't I have a nicer body like so many others? Why can't I have a more outgoing character instead of being so stoned? Why Why Why...
Gets annoying when someone starts to feel that right? Lol. And it's just so hard to accept everything. I'm desperately trying to remember to trust in the Lord, but once a trial pops up, I tend to dwell on my problems, drone on them, drown in sorrow. Anyway, I guess trials are meant to make you stronger after a while and change your perspectives of different situations. So I shouldn't give up.
Hmm strangely enough, I've just cheered myself up a little bit! Haha...
Jia Jian just emailed us the details of races that are coming up this August and July. Races that I want to participate in. Races that probably would be the only few races held this year. Races that would give me free shirts that I want. Races that I am most prepared for, since I've been training my hardest this year.
Races that are held on Sunday.
So thank God I can't run any of them
8:51:00 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Today the Bio teachers showed us the mean scores for Bio Mid Years per class. The average for all 6 classes were below 50 marks. Lol. And my class is the 2nd lowest. You should see what we're doing for Bio now. I'd rather learn French.
Then I'm guessing my class also did really really badly for Chem compared to the rest of the cohort. So we shall work really hard, and snatch the 'biggest improvement' award after Promos!!! :D
Mr Lim says, if all of us Odacers don't come on time for training tomorrow morning, we'll have to do the Bhangra dance on the field twice. =.= I love the Bhangra dance! Heh. Okay, but we haven't come on time as a full batch yet.
I'm feeling really random now. I think you can tell... ... I'm watching Prison Break now! How far behind time am I? Haha. But there's Wentworth Miller and the pretty doctor so I don't care. And it's cool. Miller's a genius and he's hot. (Y)
I want to go sleep... I want to go sleep... My sister took the bathroom. ): My toothbrush...
11:35:00 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008
Who can do 60 hours of CIP with me ): Ahh
9:57:00 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008
Didn't run this morning at all. Bleh. So in the end I had this burning desire to do PT during PE. It was fun! Maybe I just wanted to get darker. (:
I spent 2.5hours in the library doing the half of the June XP secretary report. By the time I left, I was freezing as much as when I was at Gunung Rajah summit.
Felt like spending most of the day by myself today. Maybe I didn't have a choice
10:22:00 PM
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
I'm really happy today. (:
10:09:00 PM
Saturday, July 05, 2008
I know of a girl that's not really well liked by quite a lot of people. Sadly when she gets teased or slammed down by others, I'm there. I'm not only there, but I add on to the mocks and complaints towards her.
I just had this dream last night about being hated by everyone. And I don't know why I was hated, but I know I felt terribly rejected and disappointed. And when I woke up from my dream, the first thing that came to my mind was that I was feeling how that girl probably is feeling in school.
So... I shall try to be a good friend. Haha.
6:53:00 PM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Hardworkingly stupid
I shall tell you a painful, boring, painful, boring, painful, boring story about today.
After not running since 5th June, I was dying to run today. The thing was that my workout happened to be 18 rounds at level 2(TOUGH!), and if I couldn't hit the timing given(30 minutes total), I'd have to run it again after training. I knew that since I had been eating ice cream every day, I would definitely have to repeat the run, and that meant I would be missing 36 rounds today if I didn't run! ): So that amplified my desire to run even more. And more than even more. ):
But my toe has an infection so if I ran with my shoes... I wouldn't be able to last long. So I asked P if I could run barefooted. Then he told me to try one round at 1.40min, and if I didn't have trouble, I could run. Honestly, it didn't hurt. So I did my 18 rounds. Forgetting that I had peeled some skin at the bottom of my foot the day before(It had bubbles).
You can guess what happened after running 6km barefooted on the track. Knees busted and foot busted. Ironically, my toe didn't hurt one bit.
Now I'm limping everywhere. Sucks. But I didn't regret my run one bit. Loved every 30 minutes and 36 seconds of it. Loved the feel of airy feet. Loved the fact that eating ice cream every day didn't affect my run TOO much. Loved that I was faster than some guys mwahaha(Sorry feeling ego!). Loved pushing through 18 rounds without the thought of stopping.
Truthfully my timing's like crap compared to last time. But I don't care... We had pt today! Die arms die, then get stronger arms stronger! I'll do a pull up by the end of this year rawr.
Came back home. Burst more bubbles. Liquid spilling out of my feet. Amusing. Bathed. Pain. Sting. But I like to bandage my wounds. :D